I have been Thinking...

When I first started this blog all I did was rant about politics and other bull shit thinking my opinion actually mattered, but when it comes down to it, it does not. I realize now that all these things are relative, all I was doing was regetating what Michael Savage had said the other day. What the hell do I know? I keep asking this, expecting an answer from no one in particular.

Of all the things I have learned, the one, most important thing I can tell anyone is, don't take anything for grantit. Life is to god damn sort to be doing that, but sadly I have done just that. So, my unexistent audinece, take heed and cherish the people you hold dear before it is to late.

I suppose I have been re-learning how to enjoy my life and to come out of the shell of being an angry sarcastic jack ass. Every day used to feel like a dream to me, but now I feel awake and happy. I have lost weight, and plan on losing more. I am more cheerful and friendly too.

About the only thing that brings me joy is my girlfriend. I cannot get her off my mind. I love to see her smile, and her sense of humor keeps me laugh till my sides hurt. I miss her.

To pass the time though, I play a lot of Team Fortress 2. I am enjoying the new update they just came out with for the solider and demoman, they are quite fun. The eyelander is by the best thing they made for the demoman, nothing gives you a rush more then lobbing the head off a heavy weapons guy all the while side stepping his minigun. Each head you take off gives you a +15 health bonus and a speed increase, I think the cap on health you can have is 210 though. The solider's got an intresting set of itiems too, though I do not have them all yet. I am looking forward to getting the new rocket launcher, the equalizer is kind of cool, kind of like the eyelander, only the lower your health is, the faster and more damage you do. The buff thing kind of sucks because it takes the place of the shotgun, lowering your survilability a bit. It is alright if you can stay alive long enough to use I guess.

Enough nerdy game talk, I thought I'd just change the mood of my blog a bit.